Ugh.

I'm at home today, the first of two days of vacation. I had hoped to use this time to crank out some Industriousness, like a new article or progress on Xcode for Premake. But I find myself unmotivated, uninspired, lacking in enthusiasm or energy. Humbug.

One needs time to recharge now and again, I know. I ought to go out on the deck and read a book or scribble in my sketchpad; noodle around on the Danelectro or take a drive out Crum Creek way. But I feel a certain obligation to my work, to be making steady progress, especially on an "opportunity day" like this one.

To take the edge off my self-imposed guilt I've dropped back to structured procrastication, checking off odds-and-ends around the house like ripping the new movies to the Playstation, fixing the mower, getting Aiden some bike riding practice. This has a certain satisfaction, and if it lacks in glamour it still shortens the backlog.

I guess what bugs me most is the correlation between the vacation and the drop in motivation. I have an entire day available for my own work, and so I feel no urgency to get started. Coincidence or causation? Is it worth creating a false deadline for myself, or better to just let it ride? Push through and get something done knowing that it will be uninspired, or live to fight another day?

I have no answer. But these books on my desk could be put away, and those shelves could be dusted...

Update: Apparently I just needed to vent and organize. I felt better as soon as I posted, and by the time I finished decluttering the studio my brain was turning over Xcode ideas. I ended up making decent progress on the day.